nothing much really...i guess i just feel kinda guilty i haven't really blogged much for myself for a while....being rather escapist in nature, i dun quite take to facing problems a lot....(strangely for work, i do. it's for personal stuff, i dun like show-downs) read a lot of blogs by people around me n frankly, i am taken aback many a times by how brutally frank these guys can be with themselves. love/hate scenarios r more colourful than a Monet or a Picasso....very bold n shout-in-your-face kinda effect. they live very "explosive" lives, it seems. even boredom can be so vivid....
sometimes i wonder, am i going mad? or worse, going numb? numb to watever is going on, numb to the concept of Life. n i think abt me being escapist and stuff...where m i eventually escaping to? what m i escaping from? from sanity to insanity? the other way round? read off some book, the author thinks it is tougher to be an ordinary person, truly ordinary, than anything. guess it makes some sense on 1st reading. but then i think again, what maketh the "ordinary" man? not thinking too much? not feeling too much? not doing too much to stand up for anything? the list goes on....n it shows i am "thinking"..so i am not that "ordinary", hahahahahaha.
enuff of crap ...i think i gotta try to get my direction clear.....if there is to be some great escape in my life, i'd better know where i am supposed to be running.
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