我决定很认真地听一听几米的动画原声带《微笑的鱼》。
就来那么一次，很认真、很认真地听，然后很自然、很自然地被感动。
一条鱼，如何微笑？
这个微笑，又如何打动一个寂寞的心灵？
听见一把很久以前曾经听过的声音，后来才知道歌手是谁。
如同清流的嗓音，在夜里把我承载到某个不知名的幽静所在。
是陶渊明的“桃花源”，抑或是曹雪芹的“太虚幻境”，哪里都是可以让我休息的吧。
总之，听见那一把舒缓的声音，人是绝对放松得了的。
现在终于明白，鱼，怎么会微笑。
或许是在听到优美的旋律时，一点回馈。
19 May 2005
18 May 2005
控诉
有时候，觉得自己做多少，都没有人在乎。
甚至，做多了不被认同，还感到十分愚蠢。
当然，我不是靠一句“谢谢”来维持生命的loser。
那未免太“低等” 了，不是吗？
我还有一些自尊的，好不好？
也就因为这样，我不原意被当成一个笨蛋，为了一群不知足的家伙洒热血、断头颅。
洒了的血会被不识货的猪头当水彩，头颅当足球。
这样死而后已，等于“愚忠”。
而且又不会像岳飞那么出名，何苦？
懂得发牢骚的人，不只有彼岸的“你们”。
你们觉得我很轻松吗？天天在冷气房里翘脚享受？
开口以前高谈阔论把我扁得一文不值以前，拜托，用一下你们的眼睛、耳朵和头脑。
要是我耍绝情，你们早就没有人管了，我更可以把责任推得一干二净，拍拍屁股就走。
Who cares when I get my pay regardless of whose lives get screwed up?
别误会，我不是在装伟大、扮清高。
或许我实在没有做什么让阁下觉得值得感激的事，那我无话可说。
或许在你的人生里，我是一个你很想赶快磨灭的bad byte，那我很抱歉。
你绝对有权利走开，不理睬我，但是你没有权利伤害我。
没有——因为我和你一样是人，有血有肉，有灵魂有思想。除非，你，缺了哪一样？
*以上是我积累了近乎两年的控诉。
今天心灰意冷到了极点。
甚至，做多了不被认同，还感到十分愚蠢。
当然，我不是靠一句“谢谢”来维持生命的loser。
那未免太“低等” 了，不是吗？
我还有一些自尊的，好不好？
也就因为这样，我不原意被当成一个笨蛋，为了一群不知足的家伙洒热血、断头颅。
洒了的血会被不识货的猪头当水彩，头颅当足球。
这样死而后已，等于“愚忠”。
而且又不会像岳飞那么出名，何苦？
懂得发牢骚的人，不只有彼岸的“你们”。
你们觉得我很轻松吗？天天在冷气房里翘脚享受？
开口以前高谈阔论把我扁得一文不值以前，拜托，用一下你们的眼睛、耳朵和头脑。
要是我耍绝情，你们早就没有人管了，我更可以把责任推得一干二净，拍拍屁股就走。
Who cares when I get my pay regardless of whose lives get screwed up?
别误会，我不是在装伟大、扮清高。
或许我实在没有做什么让阁下觉得值得感激的事，那我无话可说。
或许在你的人生里，我是一个你很想赶快磨灭的bad byte，那我很抱歉。
你绝对有权利走开，不理睬我，但是你没有权利伤害我。
没有——因为我和你一样是人，有血有肉，有灵魂有思想。除非，你，缺了哪一样？
*以上是我积累了近乎两年的控诉。
今天心灰意冷到了极点。
15 May 2005
14 RULES KIDS WON'T LEARN IN SCHOOL
1) LIFE IS NOT FAIR. GET USED TO IT. The average teenager uses the phrase "it’s not fair" 8.6 times a day. The kids got it from their parents who said it so often they decided they must be the most idealistic generation ever. When the parents started hearing it from their own kids, they realized rule #1.
2) THE REAL WORLD WON’T CARE AS MUCH AS YOUR SCHOOL DOES ABOUT YOUR SELF ESTEEM. It’ll expect you to accomplish something before you feel good about yourself. This may come as a shock. When inflated self-esteem meets reality most kids complain that it’s not fair. (See rule #1.)
3) SORRY, YOU WON’T MAKE $40,000 A YEAR RIGHT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. And you won’t be a vice president or have a car phone either. You may even have to wear a uniform that doesn’t have a Gap label.
4) IF YOU THINK YOUR TEACHER IS TOUGH, WAIT TILL YOU GET A BOSS. He doesn’t have tenure, so he tends to be a bit edgier. When you screw up, he’s not going to ask you how you FEEL about it.
5) YOUR SCHOOL MAY HAVE DONE AWAY WITH WINNERS AND LOSERS. LIFE HASN’T. In some schools, they’ll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. Failing grades, have been abolished and class valedictorians scrapped, lest anyone’s feelings be hurt. Effort is as important as results. This, of course, bears not the slightest resemblance to anything in real life. See rules #1, 2, and 4.
6) FLIPPING BURGERS IS NOT BENEATH YOUR DIGNITY. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping. They called it opportunity. They weren’t embarrassed making minimum wage either. They would have been embarrassed to sit around talking about Kurt Cobain all weekend.
7) TELEVISION IS NOT REAL LIFE. Your life is not a sitcom. Your problems will not all be solved in thirty minutes, minus time for commercials. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop to go to jobs. Your friends will not be perky, sexy, or predictable as Jennifer Aniston.
8) BEFORE YOU WERE BORN YOUR PARENTS WEREN’T AS BORING AS THEY ARE NOW. They got that way paying your bills, cleaning up your room and listening to you tell them how idealistic you are. And by the way, before you save the rain forest from the blood sucking parasites of your parents generation, try delousing the closet in your bedroom.
9) LIFE IS NOT DIVIDED INTO SEMESTERS. AND YOU DON’T GET SUMMERS OFF. Not even Easter break. They expect you to show up every day. For 8 hours. And you don’t get a new life every 10 weeks. If just goes on and on. While we’re at it, few jobs are interested in fostering your self-expression or helping you find yourself. Fewer still lead to self-realization. See rules #1 and 2.
10) IT’S NOT YOUR PARENTS FAULT. IF YOU SCREW UP YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE. This is the flip side of "It’s my life," and "You’re not the boss of me," and other eloquent proclamations of your generation. When you turn 18, it’s on your dime. Don’t whine about it or you’ll sound like a baby boomer.
11) BE NICE TO NERDS. YOU MAY END UP WORKING FOR THEM. WE ALL COULD.
12) SMOKING DOES NOT MAKE YOU LOOK COOL . . . IT MAKES YOU LOOK MORONIC. Next time you’re out cruising, watch an 11-year old with a butt in his mouth. That’s what you look like to anyone over 20. Ditto for "expressing yourself" with purple hair and/or pierced body parts.
13) YOU ARE NOT IMMORTAL. See rule #9. If you are under the impression that living fast, dying young, and leaving a beautiful corpse is romantic, you obviously haven’t seen one of your peers at room temperature lately.
14) ENJOY THIS WHILE YOU CAN. Sure parents are a pain, school’s a bother, and life is depressing. Someday you’ll realize how wonderful it was to be a kid. Maybe you should start now.
2) THE REAL WORLD WON’T CARE AS MUCH AS YOUR SCHOOL DOES ABOUT YOUR SELF ESTEEM. It’ll expect you to accomplish something before you feel good about yourself. This may come as a shock. When inflated self-esteem meets reality most kids complain that it’s not fair. (See rule #1.)
3) SORRY, YOU WON’T MAKE $40,000 A YEAR RIGHT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. And you won’t be a vice president or have a car phone either. You may even have to wear a uniform that doesn’t have a Gap label.
4) IF YOU THINK YOUR TEACHER IS TOUGH, WAIT TILL YOU GET A BOSS. He doesn’t have tenure, so he tends to be a bit edgier. When you screw up, he’s not going to ask you how you FEEL about it.
5) YOUR SCHOOL MAY HAVE DONE AWAY WITH WINNERS AND LOSERS. LIFE HASN’T. In some schools, they’ll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. Failing grades, have been abolished and class valedictorians scrapped, lest anyone’s feelings be hurt. Effort is as important as results. This, of course, bears not the slightest resemblance to anything in real life. See rules #1, 2, and 4.
6) FLIPPING BURGERS IS NOT BENEATH YOUR DIGNITY. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping. They called it opportunity. They weren’t embarrassed making minimum wage either. They would have been embarrassed to sit around talking about Kurt Cobain all weekend.
7) TELEVISION IS NOT REAL LIFE. Your life is not a sitcom. Your problems will not all be solved in thirty minutes, minus time for commercials. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop to go to jobs. Your friends will not be perky, sexy, or predictable as Jennifer Aniston.
8) BEFORE YOU WERE BORN YOUR PARENTS WEREN’T AS BORING AS THEY ARE NOW. They got that way paying your bills, cleaning up your room and listening to you tell them how idealistic you are. And by the way, before you save the rain forest from the blood sucking parasites of your parents generation, try delousing the closet in your bedroom.
9) LIFE IS NOT DIVIDED INTO SEMESTERS. AND YOU DON’T GET SUMMERS OFF. Not even Easter break. They expect you to show up every day. For 8 hours. And you don’t get a new life every 10 weeks. If just goes on and on. While we’re at it, few jobs are interested in fostering your self-expression or helping you find yourself. Fewer still lead to self-realization. See rules #1 and 2.
10) IT’S NOT YOUR PARENTS FAULT. IF YOU SCREW UP YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE. This is the flip side of "It’s my life," and "You’re not the boss of me," and other eloquent proclamations of your generation. When you turn 18, it’s on your dime. Don’t whine about it or you’ll sound like a baby boomer.
11) BE NICE TO NERDS. YOU MAY END UP WORKING FOR THEM. WE ALL COULD.
12) SMOKING DOES NOT MAKE YOU LOOK COOL . . . IT MAKES YOU LOOK MORONIC. Next time you’re out cruising, watch an 11-year old with a butt in his mouth. That’s what you look like to anyone over 20. Ditto for "expressing yourself" with purple hair and/or pierced body parts.
13) YOU ARE NOT IMMORTAL. See rule #9. If you are under the impression that living fast, dying young, and leaving a beautiful corpse is romantic, you obviously haven’t seen one of your peers at room temperature lately.
14) ENJOY THIS WHILE YOU CAN. Sure parents are a pain, school’s a bother, and life is depressing. Someday you’ll realize how wonderful it was to be a kid. Maybe you should start now.
再来一篇……
韩愈《师说》
古之学者必有师。师者，所以传道、受业、解惑也。人非生而知之者，孰能无惑？惑而不从师，其为惑也，终不解矣。
生乎吾前，其闻道也，固先乎吾，吾从而师之；生乎吾后，其闻道貌岸然也，亦先乎吾，吾从而师之。吾师道也，夫庸知其年之先后生于吾乎？是故无贵无贱，无长无少，道之所存，师之所存也。
嗟乎！师道貌岸然之不传也久矣，欲人之无惑也难矣。古之圣人，其出人也远矣，犹太人且从师而问焉；今之众人，其下圣人也亦远矣，而耻学于师。是故圣益圣，愚益愚。圣人之所以为圣，愚人之所以为愚，其皆出于此乎？
爱其子，择师而教之；于其身也，则耻师焉，惑矣！彼童子之师，授之书而习其句读者也，非吾所谓传其道、解其惑者也。句读之不知，惑之不解，或师焉，或不焉，小学而大遗，吾未见其明也。 巫医乐师百工之人，不耻相师。士大夫之族，曰师、曰弟子云者，则群聚而笑之。问之，则曰："彼与彼，年相若也，道相似也。位卑则足羞，官盛则近谀。"呜呼！师道之不复，可知矣！巫医乐同师百工之人，君子不齿，今其智乃反不能及，其可怪也欤！
圣人无常师。孔子师郯子、苌弘、师襄、老聃。郯子之徒，其贤不及孔子。孔子曰：“三人行，则必有我师。”是故弟子不必不如师，师不必贤于弟子，闻道有先后，术业有专攻，如是而已。 李氏子蟠，年十七，好古文，六艺经传，皆通习之，不拘于时，学于余。余嘉其能行古道，作《师说》以贻之。
韩愈的《师说》，曾经是我最讨厌的古文篇章。
（因为要背诵和默写，这些是学生最讨厌的……，我也一样！）
想不到，毕业多年后，依旧记得读过这篇“劝学”的作品。
而且，忽然能够体会到这位古文大师的用心之良苦……
细细咀嚼吧，还真有些意思。
古之学者必有师。师者，所以传道、受业、解惑也。人非生而知之者，孰能无惑？惑而不从师，其为惑也，终不解矣。
生乎吾前，其闻道也，固先乎吾，吾从而师之；生乎吾后，其闻道貌岸然也，亦先乎吾，吾从而师之。吾师道也，夫庸知其年之先后生于吾乎？是故无贵无贱，无长无少，道之所存，师之所存也。
嗟乎！师道貌岸然之不传也久矣，欲人之无惑也难矣。古之圣人，其出人也远矣，犹太人且从师而问焉；今之众人，其下圣人也亦远矣，而耻学于师。是故圣益圣，愚益愚。圣人之所以为圣，愚人之所以为愚，其皆出于此乎？
爱其子，择师而教之；于其身也，则耻师焉，惑矣！彼童子之师，授之书而习其句读者也，非吾所谓传其道、解其惑者也。句读之不知，惑之不解，或师焉，或不焉，小学而大遗，吾未见其明也。 巫医乐师百工之人，不耻相师。士大夫之族，曰师、曰弟子云者，则群聚而笑之。问之，则曰："彼与彼，年相若也，道相似也。位卑则足羞，官盛则近谀。"呜呼！师道之不复，可知矣！巫医乐同师百工之人，君子不齿，今其智乃反不能及，其可怪也欤！
圣人无常师。孔子师郯子、苌弘、师襄、老聃。郯子之徒，其贤不及孔子。孔子曰：“三人行，则必有我师。”是故弟子不必不如师，师不必贤于弟子，闻道有先后，术业有专攻，如是而已。 李氏子蟠，年十七，好古文，六艺经传，皆通习之，不拘于时，学于余。余嘉其能行古道，作《师说》以贻之。
韩愈的《师说》，曾经是我最讨厌的古文篇章。
（因为要背诵和默写，这些是学生最讨厌的……，我也一样！）
想不到，毕业多年后，依旧记得读过这篇“劝学”的作品。
而且，忽然能够体会到这位古文大师的用心之良苦……
细细咀嚼吧，还真有些意思。
12 May 2005
Delusion
To the deluded,
it doesn't matter how undeluded you are,
as long as they see you as deluded,
as the unwise walk away from the wise.
To the undeluded,
it doesn't matter how deluded others are,
as long as you are not,
but the compassionate never walks away from the unwise.
An interesting quote.....
it doesn't matter how undeluded you are,
as long as they see you as deluded,
as the unwise walk away from the wise.
To the undeluded,
it doesn't matter how deluded others are,
as long as you are not,
but the compassionate never walks away from the unwise.
An interesting quote.....
10 May 2005
今天，我的心情很“古文”……
十年生死两茫茫。不思量，自难忘。千里孤坟、无处话凄凉。纵使相逢应不识、尘满面，鬓如霜。 夜来幽梦忽还乡。小轩窗，正梳妆。相顾无言，惟有泪千行，料得年年断肠处，明月夜，短松冈。
苏东坡的〈江城子〉，是我与宋词擦肩的第一篇作品。
在很重视浪漫的年龄接触这样的文字，很容易衍生悲情。
“十年”成为了一个很方便的时间单位，思念一个人就用x个十年来轰轰烈烈一番好了。
千行的泪如何流淌，这是文学老师口中会归纳的“夸张手法”，没有人会这么哭的，因为很可能会瞎。更有可能的是，另寻新欢矣！
不过，还是不会完全漠视〈江城子〉里交织的古典痴情，毕竟，有这样的爱情，才是一生难忘的邂逅。
苏东坡的〈江城子〉，是我与宋词擦肩的第一篇作品。
在很重视浪漫的年龄接触这样的文字，很容易衍生悲情。
“十年”成为了一个很方便的时间单位，思念一个人就用x个十年来轰轰烈烈一番好了。
千行的泪如何流淌，这是文学老师口中会归纳的“夸张手法”，没有人会这么哭的，因为很可能会瞎。更有可能的是，另寻新欢矣！
不过，还是不会完全漠视〈江城子〉里交织的古典痴情，毕竟，有这样的爱情，才是一生难忘的邂逅。
今天看看《陋室铭》
陋 室 铭 刘禹锡
山不在高，有仙则名。水不在深，有龙则灵。斯是陋室，惟吾德馨。苔痕上阶绿，草色入廉青。谈笑有鸿儒，往来无白丁。可以调素琴，阅金经。无丝竹之乱耳，无案牍之劳形。南阳诸葛庐，西蜀子云亭。孔子云：「何陋之有？」
这篇《陋室铭》曾经伴我度过高中时代，一直觉得刘禹锡好有性格，又或许是很阿Q噢。
敢问世人“何陋之有”，究竟需要多大的勇气、多少的自信啊！
就姑且不要去考虑老刘是不是在死撑，还是打肿脸皮充胖子，我认为他真的活出了一个读书人真正的尊严，一个文人应持的风度。
我们生活在繁华的都市，周围的环境等同于古代的雕栏玉砌，舒适到了奢华的程度。
有几个人会留心于一座“陋室”？是不是还有可能，有这么一个“陋室”，能够真正地容纳我们整天叫屈喊苦的灵魂？
还有几个刘禹锡活在我们之中呢？
真喜欢这篇《陋室铭》。
山不在高，有仙则名。水不在深，有龙则灵。斯是陋室，惟吾德馨。苔痕上阶绿，草色入廉青。谈笑有鸿儒，往来无白丁。可以调素琴，阅金经。无丝竹之乱耳，无案牍之劳形。南阳诸葛庐，西蜀子云亭。孔子云：「何陋之有？」
这篇《陋室铭》曾经伴我度过高中时代，一直觉得刘禹锡好有性格，又或许是很阿Q噢。
敢问世人“何陋之有”，究竟需要多大的勇气、多少的自信啊！
就姑且不要去考虑老刘是不是在死撑，还是打肿脸皮充胖子，我认为他真的活出了一个读书人真正的尊严，一个文人应持的风度。
我们生活在繁华的都市，周围的环境等同于古代的雕栏玉砌，舒适到了奢华的程度。
有几个人会留心于一座“陋室”？是不是还有可能，有这么一个“陋室”，能够真正地容纳我们整天叫屈喊苦的灵魂？
还有几个刘禹锡活在我们之中呢？
真喜欢这篇《陋室铭》。
8 May 2005
How low can LOW get...
note this is my expression now......mood is low.....low low low low low....................
it's been a pretty unproductive weekend. fine, i did work off some work-karma, about 500 grams of marking......if it has to be quantified of course. i hate it when everything has to go onto a scale, to be measured, classified and graded.......this is just SO bourgeois.
so another weekend is over from the pages of my life.......i am closer to turning 26....woe!
maybe that's y i am such a floor-crawling low-spirited fool now.......depressed..sighz...
7 May 2005
忽然有点“念旧”
这是老化的迹象吗？！
今早在起床梳洗时，突然想起了李宗盛的《凡人歌》。那真是首有点“年代”的歌了，怎么会莫名其妙地在刷牙的姿势间中被勾起呢？
＊你我皆凡人 生在人世間
終日奔波苦 一刻不得閑
（你）既然不是仙 難免有雜念
道義放兩旁 〔把〕利字擺中間
＃多少男子漢 一怒為紅顏
多少同林鳥 已成〔了〕分飛燕
人生何其短 何必苦苦戀
愛人不見了 向誰去喊冤
＋問你何時曾看見 這個世界為了人們改變
有了夢寐以求的容顏 是否就算是擁有春天
自己哼哼唱唱起来，却出现了忘词的现象。这里一句，那里一句的，一首歌乱七八糟、颠三倒四地唱不起来。还是把歌词找来，挂上一个档案好了。
今早在起床梳洗时，突然想起了李宗盛的《凡人歌》。那真是首有点“年代”的歌了，怎么会莫名其妙地在刷牙的姿势间中被勾起呢？
＊你我皆凡人 生在人世間
終日奔波苦 一刻不得閑
（你）既然不是仙 難免有雜念
道義放兩旁 〔把〕利字擺中間
＃多少男子漢 一怒為紅顏
多少同林鳥 已成〔了〕分飛燕
人生何其短 何必苦苦戀
愛人不見了 向誰去喊冤
＋問你何時曾看見 這個世界為了人們改變
有了夢寐以求的容顏 是否就算是擁有春天
自己哼哼唱唱起来，却出现了忘词的现象。这里一句，那里一句的，一首歌乱七八糟、颠三倒四地唱不起来。还是把歌词找来，挂上一个档案好了。
6 May 2005
Whispers from Samsara
When the mind is pure, the land is pure. -Vimalakirti Nirdesa Sutra
When the heart is good, everything else is good. -Buddhist Saying
The problem is not that we are in Samsara, but that we are samsaric. -stonepeace
We are "samasaric", creatures born of the mundane world, into the mundane world.
We are so often embroiled in scuffles with others or ourselves, we truly invite our own suffering a lot of the time.
And it's so tiring , so much so I don't wish to speak to anyone at all sometimes. Just too bushed.
Too tired from bitching/grumbling/counter-striking/wishing/dreaming/living....
When the heart is good, everything else is good. -Buddhist Saying
The problem is not that we are in Samsara, but that we are samsaric. -stonepeace
We are "samasaric", creatures born of the mundane world, into the mundane world.
We are so often embroiled in scuffles with others or ourselves, we truly invite our own suffering a lot of the time.
And it's so tiring , so much so I don't wish to speak to anyone at all sometimes. Just too bushed.
Too tired from bitching/grumbling/counter-striking/wishing/dreaming/living....
5 May 2005
3 May 2005
Not Lost but Found..............
Found the lyrics for "Making of Cyborg" in the Ghost in the Shell OST.
Strangely obsessed with "old rice" it seems, in my case...
The fascination is quite unreal....
A ga maeba, kuwashime yoini keri
A ga maeba, teru tsuki toyomu nari
When you are dancing, a beautiful lady becomes drunken.
When you are dancing, a shining moon rings.
Yobai ni kami amakudarite,
Yoha ake, nuedori naku,
Tookamiemitame
A god descends for a wedding
And dawn approaches while the night bird sings.
God bless you. God bless you.
God bless you. God bless you.
Strangely obsessed with "old rice" it seems, in my case...
The fascination is quite unreal....
A ga maeba, kuwashime yoini keri
A ga maeba, teru tsuki toyomu nari
When you are dancing, a beautiful lady becomes drunken.
When you are dancing, a shining moon rings.
Yobai ni kami amakudarite,
Yoha ake, nuedori naku,
Tookamiemitame
A god descends for a wedding
And dawn approaches while the night bird sings.
God bless you. God bless you.
God bless you. God bless you.
2 May 2005
未延续·失落
走进网络森林，持着寻觅村上春树的轨迹的念头。
一路回到了曾经十分钟爱的村上站点，旧日沸沸腾腾，热热闹闹的虚拟所在，如今似乎变成了荒原。页面上方的“更新日期”显示的是2004年5月14日。还有两周，这里就废置满一年了。
纯白底色的网页设计，搭配着可爱的小图样，以及村上迷们的篇篇文章，把这片为这位日本小说教父而创设的天地构筑了起来。很可惜，原本的“花团锦簇”无以延续……
自若干年前的《听风的歌》、《挪威的森林》到这一、两年来的《海边的卡夫卡》、《After Dark》，我都不断在涉猎村上春树的作品。他的写作生涯，原来已经横跨四分之一个世纪了。很难得的事。有人问过我，读不读得“懂”村上的书？那么，我倒想反问，何谓“懂”？何谓“不懂”？这些年来，一直有学者钻研他的小说，因为觉得他能够成为代表日本文学的旗手之一，必然有其原因。村上小说针对现今日本社会的“自省性”是一个研究的热点。这样的印象在他的作品中一再被深化，所以有人如此下定论实在不足为奇。
可是，我仍然认为，没有必要确切地衡量我又没有看懂村上春树的书。
返回那个遭废弃的网站。里头收集了无数阅读过村上春树的著作的各种读者的文稿。大家来自五湖四海，各自的生活里也迸发着属于自己的火花，基于这些因素，在鉴赏同样一部或几部同一名作者的作品，必然存在着大大小小的差异。这个既简单又有趣的事实，便吸引我定时到那里浏览。大伙儿迥然的文字风貌，总会让我搜获一些些耐人寻味的部分，甚至甘之如饴。
现在，风景似乎烟消云散了。留下来的往昔的躯壳只能使一切感觉上更为空虚。
失落的心情，此刻难以摆脱。
一路回到了曾经十分钟爱的村上站点，旧日沸沸腾腾，热热闹闹的虚拟所在，如今似乎变成了荒原。页面上方的“更新日期”显示的是2004年5月14日。还有两周，这里就废置满一年了。
纯白底色的网页设计，搭配着可爱的小图样，以及村上迷们的篇篇文章，把这片为这位日本小说教父而创设的天地构筑了起来。很可惜，原本的“花团锦簇”无以延续……
自若干年前的《听风的歌》、《挪威的森林》到这一、两年来的《海边的卡夫卡》、《After Dark》，我都不断在涉猎村上春树的作品。他的写作生涯，原来已经横跨四分之一个世纪了。很难得的事。有人问过我，读不读得“懂”村上的书？那么，我倒想反问，何谓“懂”？何谓“不懂”？这些年来，一直有学者钻研他的小说，因为觉得他能够成为代表日本文学的旗手之一，必然有其原因。村上小说针对现今日本社会的“自省性”是一个研究的热点。这样的印象在他的作品中一再被深化，所以有人如此下定论实在不足为奇。
可是，我仍然认为，没有必要确切地衡量我又没有看懂村上春树的书。
返回那个遭废弃的网站。里头收集了无数阅读过村上春树的著作的各种读者的文稿。大家来自五湖四海，各自的生活里也迸发着属于自己的火花，基于这些因素，在鉴赏同样一部或几部同一名作者的作品，必然存在着大大小小的差异。这个既简单又有趣的事实，便吸引我定时到那里浏览。大伙儿迥然的文字风貌，总会让我搜获一些些耐人寻味的部分，甚至甘之如饴。
现在，风景似乎烟消云散了。留下来的往昔的躯壳只能使一切感觉上更为空虚。
失落的心情，此刻难以摆脱。
1 May 2005
Follow Me -- by Kimiko Itoh
Follow me to a land across the shining sea
Waiting beyond the world we have known
Beyond the world the dream could be
And the joy we have tasted
Follow me along the road that only love can see
Rising above the fun years of the night
Into the light beyond the tears
And all the years we have wasted
*Follow me to a distant land this mountain high
Where all the music that we always kept inside will fill the sky
Singing in the silent swerve a heart is free
While the world goes on running and turning
Turning and falling
A beautiful song I found both calm and unsettling at the same time.
Waiting beyond the world we have known
Beyond the world the dream could be
And the joy we have tasted
Follow me along the road that only love can see
Rising above the fun years of the night
Into the light beyond the tears
And all the years we have wasted
*Follow me to a distant land this mountain high
Where all the music that we always kept inside will fill the sky
Singing in the silent swerve a heart is free
While the world goes on running and turning
Turning and falling
A beautiful song I found both calm and unsettling at the same time.
"If our God and our hopes are nothing but scientific phenomena, then let us admit it must be said that our love is scientific as well"--L'eve Future
I finally found the quote from "L'eve Future" .
Having read it off the opening screen of Ghost in the Shell 2, I can't help but find it so true.
Maybe because today, we have gotten so far in science that we entrust to it too much power to rule our lives.
Nothing radically new in Ghost to be overly amazed by, cyborgs and AI are concepts familiar enough by now... The mystery lies in uncovering exactly what makes us human, the SOUL business and then the ethical hoo-haa. So, what is the factor differentiating us from the machines? When does the lines blur to an irreconcilable extent? Then what follows... When do we lose so much of our very being that we become dangerously alikened to machines? What to speak of Love, Hope and all things sacred then?
Back to the show.
Very awesome music and artwork , I am very impressed.
More than paid off the lousy air-con and cramped seats......;p
I think such animes are much to my taste.....hmmmmm
Am I dark or what?
Having read it off the opening screen of Ghost in the Shell 2, I can't help but find it so true.
Maybe because today, we have gotten so far in science that we entrust to it too much power to rule our lives.
Nothing radically new in Ghost to be overly amazed by, cyborgs and AI are concepts familiar enough by now... The mystery lies in uncovering exactly what makes us human, the SOUL business and then the ethical hoo-haa. So, what is the factor differentiating us from the machines? When does the lines blur to an irreconcilable extent? Then what follows... When do we lose so much of our very being that we become dangerously alikened to machines? What to speak of Love, Hope and all things sacred then?
Back to the show.
Very awesome music and artwork , I am very impressed.
More than paid off the lousy air-con and cramped seats......;p
I think such animes are much to my taste.....hmmmmm
Am I dark or what?
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